Hi. Met Afif, Jiamin and Sharfana in school. Band as usual, drills after that. My knees hurt! Cuz we had to drop. I was like shouting out vulgarities and Azwan kept laughing -.- Okay, slacked in school with some of the usuals, Mr kee and Mr wong too. Played some games, funny ttm. Afif's like one joker only~ Raining like hell some more. Thunder and lightning, I kept covering my ears ;@ Back home with Azwan.
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I'm tired. I swear. I'm very sick of everything already. But I know time is going to heal my wounds. Even if it's the deepest wound, it'll still leave a very beautiful scar over there. I don't get things done my way. I'm angry. I'm at my wits end. God, please help? I make my wish every night. I've been waiting for my this wish to come true. Til now i'm still waiting. Though we're like very far apart, i'm sure we'll be even closer in future. I hope God will help me. I want this wish to be fulfilled. I'm just pouring whatever that's in my heart out here. No one can help me I swear. I didn't tell anyone what happened to me, that's why no one knows how I feel. You guys wont be helping me much even if you know. Nothing helps, only YOU. I dare to promise myself that I will _______. Thanks for the very beautiful memories in the past. I love it. It'll still remain in my heart, forever. Seems so hard to get rid of the big stone in my heart.. I'm sorry if I suddenly cry in front of you guys one day. Please don't be surprised alright. This problem here is definitely too big for me to take. It's a very big blow to me, I can't take it. I really don't want to wait anymore, but i'll persevere. Somehow something told me not to give up. I really thank you for the really beautiful memories, but now.. I guess it'll not be the same anymore. Touching songs make me cry, yes. Don't blame me for crying please. Take it that i'm begging you okay? I swear this is the worst obstacle ever. I promise all of you I wont hurt myself. But I will just cry my heart out if possible. I've been controlling my damn tears for a very long time. I wanna let everything out but its like, SO hard :( People tried comforting me. The more you guys comfort me, the more I will feel like breaking down. And it's like, anytime. I'm trying very hard to control my tears in front of all of you. I'm dying in this earth alr. I hope you guys read this post. Typing all these, and crying in front of the comp now ..
